Christmas Fallout

Tomorrow I will weigh in,

I will own the damage my lax weeks have caused.

Today I tracked on MFP for the first time in weeks and drank over Glasses of water.

I was defeated by the 1000 steps, but I will be back to conquer you soon, minus the nausea and light-headed episode...

This was my dinner..... For over 400 cal per serve I am reminded why I don't 'do' pre-packaged foods.

But it was Tasty as!

I am reminded why I need to be the best me. Christmas is a time for indulgence, family and festivities 

And I want plenty more with my beautiful family.

Today was the day I got up and started again, and I am proud :) 

Round 1....

So today this happened...

My email dinged and surly enough there is Mish staring at me from the screen.
It's safe to say that this 'going it alone' has been a fairly epic fail
I can make all the excuses in the world but obviously I still need the program, so today I've signed up for round 1.
It's a hard time of year, I get that,
But I deserve this, I deserve to be the healthiest version of myself
So with the silly season well in throw, I'm going to allow myself to enduldge, I have a dinner and movie date with the girls tonight ;)
I will use my brain on Christmas day and not be ashamed of what I eat but be in tune with what I feel and be joyful.
On my days of rest I will follow the previously printed MB plans
I will be healthy, I may have met my goals for this year... but I am still obese so still have work to do.

I will be doing C25K in the preseason... if it's going well then I will be doing the 10k program.
I'm not a runner, but I will be soon.

Merry Christmas,

Also I apologize for not reading blogs,
I'll be checking in with you all daily from now on xoxo

Quick one

Things have been a bit chaotic here,
Christmas has well and truly creeped up on me this year and my lack of organization is not normal.
We also suffered a tragic loss at Master 4's Kinder which meant alot of additional responsibilities needed to be picked up and given my cant say no habit I took a few additional things on.
Intimo is going well, it is far more busy and rewarding than I had anticipated and although things are slowing down now due to Christmas I'm still staying very busy which is very nice.
My kids are both well, even though last night they took a swim in some moster puddles during the kinder Christmas party. Turns out I am the parent to 'those kids' you know the ones that come home covered in mud when everyone else has muddy knee's and shoes. In saying that they are happy and that in turn makes me happy.... most of the time.
I've stopped smoking, it's not been easy but I'm very chuffed that it has happened. So I've not been weighing in as any weight gain is probably due to that and I will tackle it once I'm feeling free and clear of the cigarettes.
My diet has been ok, though my planning has been terrible. I can come up with a million reasons but really they are just excuses I failed to plan and am paying the price.

Life is good, even if a little chaotic

Special shout to Carol who has been checking up on me, love your work woman!

Adjustment Period

So I really want to get on here and say that I've been super great, doing my exercise and eating super clean, unfortunately that's not the case I'm taking longer to a just to my new adventures than I had anticipated.
So in the typical style I just took the excuse and ran with it.
Bummer right? Well today I have been doing some planning, Monday night someone said to me are you just busy or are you being productive?
Stopped me dead in my tracks
Sure we can all be busy but how much do we actually get done? I have been throwing that busy card around like no-ones business. Can't cook, too busy.... Can't exercise... to busy...
But what am I actually doing?
To be honest, not a whole lot....
So today that is all changing, I am using my diary to actually write out get it done lists, I am also meal planning, slotting in times for shopping, food prep and of course the million other commitments I have going on.
So being busy is no longer an excuse,
From today forwards I will be productive with my time,
Next week I will rectify my lack of exercise situation by seamlessly inserting into my days.
For this week I will be getting my nutrition back on the bandwagon and sorting out how much time I actually spend doing nothing and fill that time up with far more useful things.

On that note, I have children that are waiting to play hungry hungry hippo's
I'll be checking in again soon

Flying Check in

Weigh in day, and I forgot!
*facepalm*

Life is good, but busy
Trying to work out the balance between, social, work, family and exercise...

Eeekkk,
But don't worry,
I've got this!

And she is back again....

I was so unaware it had been so long, it honestly only felt like a week had passed from my last post. 

Master 4 in his mummy made elephant get-up

Miss Almost 2 is pretty evil, lucky she's cute too

So I suppose it's that age old habit of when you are doing the wrong thing you hide away. That's actually not true, I have been 'thinking about what I'm doing' but in saying that only doing the minimum to get it done. I've not been tracking, my exercise has dropped to around 2-3 times a week and work has been so intense that I have been in the dark place eating ice-cream and not allowing myself to look outside the box. 

This morning I had a bittersweet moment, It's the 26th of October, the day of my sisters 30th and the day before Miss1 turns 2. After getting up the wrong side of the bed and really half-assing my gym session it dawned on me,

Today is the day I was supposed to be doing the 10k stampede :(

Due to money issues I was never able to register, I continued to train but my running has been very lackluster, when crunch time came, I chose birthday presents over the stampede. Add in that I've recently started seeing a chiropractor to rectify my favor to the right side and I have had days where I'm also hurting in new and exciting ways. Also more money :(

I've been looking outside and the weather is perfect, I was so worried that It would be stinking hot, but it's cool with a light drizzle that comes and goes... Bummer.

So today can go one of two ways, I can wallow in poor me's or I can use it to get back up and go.

Guess which one I've chosen?

No more floating in the middle, I've been busily printing up meal plan's and organizing my 12wbt recipe files on the computer. Obviously next round will be a going it alone round but I'm putting away money to pay for round 1 next year. I will follow the meals plans of the past two rounds and get my nutrition back on track, When pre-season starts I will be signing up that day and throwing myself into the pre-season to smash it out. 

Exercise wise will be interesting for the next few months as I have completed my training and will be starting up as an Intimo consultant on the 1st of November. My primary workout time has been evenings so my organizational skills will need to be perfect to get the exercise in. I can do it, even though it seems hard at the moment before i know it I'll be in a new routine and it will kick ass. 

Exciting times ahead for me! 

Intimo will help me support my family without needing more childcare and at the moment that is what needed to happen. We have been living month to month for the past year and although we can make it work, it truly is the most stressful and depressing time I've ever had. We have had lots of invites to events and outings that we simply cannot afford and I've had enough, my kids deserve, swimming lessons, birthday parties and special trips to places which for the past year have not been able to happen. Although it is a little scary I'm confident that the choice will pay off.

I've finally decided that Master 4 will be doing another year of kinder as he is just too young to send off to school, I sent him for another transition day and he was in a class with children primarily 2 years older than him, how can I expect him to enjoy the experience if he's all ready on the back foot being so much younger than the peers I'm placing him with? 

So I feel better for making that choice, however with it has come the realization that we are in for another 12 months of a tight budget, but now I have a plan so I'm confident we can make it work. I also finally got approved for my transfer which should happen mid-way through November. 

Exciting times ahead! 

Size 12 normal, non 'large fit' happy day's 

Also a few little fistpumps to finish,

I remain below 80kg even though I've not been devout to the program,

I'm comfortably a size 12 top, give me a few weeks (or a few more kg) and I will also be a size 14 bottom which were my goals for Christmas this year.

I've made an appointment for hypnotherapy

I've also made an appointment to get my strength workouts formalized.

Things are looking up and although it's been a dark time, it doesn't have to stay this way.

The only place I have to go is up while the scales keep moving down 

xoxox

Absent

So I've been a little absent,

Things have been pretty intense around here, We've had some money trouble and some illness to content with. As well as school holidays!
Hot water system blew up last week,
D has had days cut back at work
I had a beautiful FFS Friday post all ready to go just no time to write it.
I've been off the rails as real life has been a little intense.

BUT

I'm back, and ready to rock it.
Come at me life, I'm ready for you with a smile
AND a kickass attitude

Bring it on!